Wednesday, December 17, 2014
The good thing about retiring young is that you get to see the world in its entirety, and still have time to figure yourself out. Of course I haven't seen the whole world, just my entire world. I realized there is no future in music, unless you're one of the suit-wearers who pushes the papers, but for us, the one's that make the music, there is no future. The bad thing about retiring young is that you get to see the world in it's entirety, and everybody knows who you are. You never really get to be alone anymore, every person is a fan, and even if they aren't, they still want a picture or an autograph or some proof that they got to meet you. That's why I'm glad Dreamwood Terrace exist. With this city I am able to blend in to the mix and become human again. Although, there are some scares I do admit. The other day I was sitting by the window at Gavin's, like I usually do on the days the walls of my apartment are tired of being stared at, in the booth beneath the broken ceiling tile. I wear glasses to hide my face just in case someone does know the real me, but I took them off to wipe the sleep out of my eyes because the coffee didn't, and when I looked back up there was a women just staring at me. I stared back for a while, she was certainly attractive, in fact that's probably a understatement, she was more than just attractive. I panicked. After we exchanged that unsettling staring contest I immediately reached for my glasses and returned to being my other me...it can't be helped. I feel guilty though, she looked kind of confused, and my panic episode certainly didn't help. I'm sure that was a first for both of us. She looked away and continued her day and I went back to sitting at the booth beneath the broken ceiling tile. As I write this, I feel I want to smile. The good thing about retiring young is that, even though you get to see the world in its entirety, you still get to have firsts.